Thursday was not a great day. I had the usual symptoms... I was overly tired with body aches, headaches, numbness, stomach pains, and was altogether just "out of it." It's a dizziness that I can't explain. It's an awkwardness that I can't explain. I wish I could compare it to something so people could understand, but I have never felt this way before. I am happy to report that even with the excess steroids, the rash on my face isn't as bad as last time and already seems to be going away. A really big annoyance is that I still have quite a bit of hair. It feels like sandpaper on my sensitive head, and I wish it would just go all the way bald already. I can sit here all day and pull tiny hairs out (it doesn't hurt, they just fall out) but even if I do that all day, there are still some in there. I also hate "chemo brain" because it's frustrating to not be able to keep a single thought together. I have been playing "Words with Friends" on my phone (it's like a Scrabble app), and I tried to spell "honor" like "honar" and didn't understand why it didn't work. Really? Anybody who knows me can understand how totally frustrating this is for me. And, anybody playing me on that app right now should take advantage of my lack in brain power! My friend is here helping me groom my wig, in hopes that I'll be up to feeling like going out this weekend. Based on how I feel today, it may not happen. But I have napped less today, so I have high hopes that tomorrow will be even better.
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Melissa
2/11/2011 02:29:27 pm
Sorry to hear your not feeling so well but that is to be expected. Too bad I dont play that spelling game online. I would love to have an opportunity to beat an "English Major" in spelling. We are looking forward to having the girls next weekend. I am planning to keep them if you are feeling up to your trip. If not then we will just plan on Chuck E Cheese... I will talk to you this week.
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Dagmar Dendorfer
2/12/2011 10:36:11 am
After reading all of your posts, I still can hardly imagine what this past month must have been like for you. I admire your strength which is apparent even when you feel lousy. What an inspiration - no wonder the kids at school love you to pieces. Please know that you are in my prayers! I agree with you - God is love and will see you through this. Please e-mail me if I can help with anything. I'd love to see you! -:)
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Annette
2/13/2011 08:59:55 am
You are beautiful and inspiration to me! I'm lucky to know you. :)
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Kate Dampier
2/13/2011 12:39:32 pm
Considering you SPANKED me with a 93 point word yesterday of Words with Friends even fuzzy you are amazing!!
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Jennifer
2/14/2011 12:25:56 am
I am now 34 years old and I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer state 3. I underwent 6 sessions of chemo, I also had a bilateral Mastectomy, after that I also had another 6 sessions of chemo, after that was over I had radiation for 35 days. I also had a daughter that was 3 at the time and my son was a year and a half. I am now cancer free and healthy. Faith is so good to have. You have a long journey ahead of you but you are young and strong with a beautiful family so please dont ever lose hope, or faith. I put a tattoo on my wrist that says BELIEVE and the L is a pink breast cancer ribbon. If I ever feel down I look at it and it helps. BELIEVE in your strength your faith and family and you can get through this. I just went through this last year so if you would like to email me anytime please do.
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