I decided that as a program, it would be beneficial for us all to share who we really are are so we can work together better and be more empathetic to one another. I stepped out of my comfort zone and shared my story, which included mostly my childhood, then I briefly added that a hardship I have faced has been my cancer journey. It made me realize that it had been a couple of years since I shared my cancer story because most of the students had no idea I was a survivor.
Then, a student asked, "what can we do to have a pink out game?" I said, "you make it happen!" And that is exactly what he did. He made posters, shirts (thank you, Felicia), and October 18th ended up being a very well participated in dress-up day and pink-out football game. It felt like everyone was donning pink. I was so humbled by the whole experience, it took me awhile to even share it. I didn't know what to say. Seeing so many people wearing shirts that said "We Wear Pink for Hofmann" was surreal. Having a student take so much initiative and seeing so many others take part too, was incredibly heartwarming and wonderful. Thank you, Devyn and everyone who made me feel all of the feels. The notes and thoughtful gifts from students had me in tears.
I know I have said this before, but we never truly realize the impact our story can have on others. These awareness activities matter. The Susan G. Komen walk on the 13th that our cheer team did, matters. Seeing the looks on the survivors' faces made it all worth it.
A teacher shared with me that her daughter was diagnosed with breast cancer this month. I shared this blog with her to read so she doesn't feel alone. Nicole, you've got this. Start the blog from January 2011 and be reassured in the emotions you are experiencing. I can't believe it has been over 8 years since I have felt exactly as you are feeling now.
Sometimes it is difficult living with survivor's guilt, but I see now that there is a purpose in sharing and it is important to do so. It brings people together and provides hope. Like I told my students, we don't choose what happens to us, but we always choose how we respond to it.
Thank you all again, from the bottom of my heart.