So basically I went through the pain and torture of 3 CT scans and a bone scan, and tons of radioactive fluids injected in me all for NO reason at all. Saying that I'm pissed is an understatement. It was difficult not to cry at cheer practice when I was listening to the message. I don't know which I'm more upset about. The fact that I have questionable spots on my liver and hip bone, or the fact that I have to do MORE testing. I would like to take this moment to get political and say I don't care who you are, something is wrong with our health care system and needs to be changed. If my doctor says something is medically necessary, an insurance company should NEVER be able to say otherwise. This is BS. I am 30 years old, I have a 6 year old and a 3 year old to take care of. I don't have time to constantly be in Orange getting unnecessary tests because my insurance is too CHEAP to give me the health care that I NEED. If my PET is not approved, I might just get it anyway and fight it later. What's the worst that can happen? I pay thousands in medical bills? What's new? It already cost us money to have my husband stay home Monday for the last worthless set of tests. All that those tests gave me was diarrhea, a burning sensation all over, a pain in my arm, radioactivity in my body, and hours away from my family all of which provided zero answers. I. Am. Frustrated.
Went to the gym today for two hours to try and get some adrenaline pumping to make me feel better. Didn't help. I was talking to my friend there and she said she knows someone who has been battling breast cancer and now it is in her liver and there is nothing they can do for her. That was really encouraging news. At least I waited until I got home to cry. I want to tell myself these spots on my liver and hip are "nothing" but that's what I told myself when I felt what I thought was a clogged milk duct in my breast. I am going to just try and be patient and see what the PET-CT says IF my insurance allows me such a fancy scan. Meanwhile, continuing to live life as if everything is normal.