While I was in the Breastlink office getting expanded, I was reminded that I actually get 18 Herceptin treatments total. They just hadn't given me those appointments yet. So now I'm scheduled out through January. I also asked a volunteer there what I'm supposed to do with this new hair do of mine. What can I do to style it while I'm growing it out? It's a very awkward length, but so far not much different than my old hair- still brown, still straight. I'm holding onto the dream that it won't be curly or weird. Anyway, the old lady had no suggestions. She said people typically keep it covered until it's the length they want, and that they aren't usually as "bold" as I am- going out in public without a hat. Great. I guess my "radical" hairstyle is just going to have to be what it is for now. A hat is not going to be an option anymore. It's too hot for that business. Whatever. As long as I avoid mirrors, I'm good. When people see me, they tend to shriek like I'm the most adorable puppy they've ever laid eyes upon and they instantly want to pet me. So. Not. Flattering.
Tomorrow, the 3rd, I have my CT scan so they can begin planning for my radiation treatment. On the 10th, which also happens to be my first day back at work, I get my mapping done and my first radiation session. "Mapping" is when they tattoo little marks on my chest so they know where to point their lasers. Hopefully I don't end up looking like I have a constellation on me. I assume that on the 10th is also when I'll find out what their "treatment plan" is for me, and whether or not that will include a "boost." Please continue those prayers for me...
Meanwhile, I just keep fighting the war that I was unwillingly drafted into by smiling through it. But I'm certainly no hero. I'm just choosing to be a survivor and not a victim. My friend with an underdeveloped arm and hand put it in perspective for me when she said "Crystal, your hair will grow back. My hand won't.' As the saying goes: at the end of the day, if we all put our problems in a pile, we'd gladly take back our own and walk away.