Speaking of my kids, they still don't know anything about what is to come. I am having a hard time figuring out how to tell my almost 5 year old about life-threatening illness. She's obviously too little to understand and I really don't want to traumatize or upset her. We had a dinner with a few friends and family tonight and it seems like any normal weekend for all of us. I am not ready for tomorrow, but I have to be. My husband and my dad's wife will be with me for the treatment process. It takes about 5 hours. Kids will be at daycare like any other Monday. I am supposed to feel pretty good the first few days. I'm looking forward to my first meal delivery already! It feels great to be feeling the love.
There are still plenty of people who have no idea this is happening. I don't know how to tell them. I hate it when people tell me awful news of this nature and I never know what to say. I don't want them to be faced with the same uncomfortable situation. I told one friend today who got so upset he had to get off the phone in a hurry. It's shocking news. It hurts. I don't want to hurt anybody.